Gobbledygook !

-First , those three last weeks were hell for me ! I dunno why but It just happened that i woke up on the wrong side of the bed for 3 weeks, everyday I tell myself tomorrow's another day I get slammed back to reality and it gets worse. ( work from 8 -4 , classes 7-9) !!

-Work can be described by this : "وهناك منهم معشر أفّ لهم كم ضايقوني", two employees of the department filed a complaint against me and to be honest this was my wake up call , limme tell you why:

- They accused me of being nafseya ; partially true since I'm tired most

of the time not having energy to interact.

- Work wise I'm 100% , socialwise : 0%

- Women are utterly jealous creatures.

- My problem is that I keep telling myself i need to extend my group of pals and make new friends but when i get the chance to meet new ppl i just sit in my shell ! Don't even give the person a glimpse of my personality .

- I'm trying my best to work on not to rely on my friends , If they favoured me I'd do likewise, there's no need for me to kill myself for anyone unless if i know they'd do the same which apparently they will never do.

- I need to put myself first and before everything else, never put ppl before me unless it's for my own good " even my mom seems to put everything before me" which hurts alot :(

- Why does marriage makes ppl change? today they're ur best friends but after marriage practically strangers, they'll act weird and try shut you down. " Ms.loala & NewBride I can feel you "

- Dear Sis " i never seem to understand you? you seem to be trying your best in makin' it harder , i tried my best but it's time for me to let go"

- Dear M " you'll never know what you have until it's gone , 7emdaay rabej 3al e3ma eli intay feeha !"

- My cousin " Om Dmai3a" : " Mabrook sweety , allah yhaneej inshallah o nsho0f 3yaalej eli ra7 y6l33on akeed moz3eejeen :Pp " Macaholic 3o2balic ;)

- Dear Chika " Never change cuz we love you the way you are, and never let anyone undermine you "

Dear H " It took me quite so long to even mention ur name , if ur reading this i wanna tell you that u made a better person outta of me which made me appreciate myself and what i have even more. i stepped the forbidden path for you sake only !which made me proud of who i am and what i am , proud of my mom's raising and the environment i was brought up with.

True that i gave up some of my standards during the time i spent with you .

I enjoyed having you as a friend and i hope it will stay the same .. It was my pleasure meeting such person .. with unlimited inquiries and quirky personality.."

- That's all for now folks :)

Xoxo,

Zabo0o6a

Drained..

The last couple of weeks, i've been haunted by this poem :

كفي الملام وعلليني .. فالشك أودى باليقين

وتناهبت كبدي الشجون .. فمن مجيري من شجوني

وأمضّني الداء العياء.. فمن مغيثي من معيني

أين التي خلقت لتهواني .. وباتت تجتويني

أماه قد غلب الأسى .. كفي الملام وعلليني

الله يا أماه فيّ .. ترفقي لا تعذليني

أرهقت روحي بالعتاب .. فأمسكيه أو ذريني

أنا شاعر أنا هائم .. أنا مستهام فاعذريني

أنا من حنيني في جحيم آه من حرّ الجحيم

أنا تائه في غيهب .. شبح الردى في قريني

ضافت بي الدنيا دعيني .. أندب الماضي دعيني

وأنا السجين بعقر داري .. فاسمعي شكوى السجين

بهزال جسمي باصفراري .. بالتجعد بالغضون

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فهد العسكر

Gibberish..

True i'm done with college but i'm working now in a Telecom. company . Too many HAWT ! guys ..

First there's the dude with feet fetish he can't take off his eye off my feet , mom tgo0l " lebsay dlaa'3 la tet7arwelain !" hehe. And the other hot guy who looks amazing , perfect complexion but acts like a teenager *yuck* ! Not to forget the cutie doll and the model who's totally meannn !

She treats me chenii bgara mafhaam ! She gave me something to write the other day which i did in couples of minutes and gave it back to her she was like " how do you know that? you wrote it yourself !" bleekh\

I wanna share with y'all a short story, I wrote back then:

As her alarm goes off to the second time and the clock indicates to 8 a.m , she thinks about hitting the snooze and goin' back to sleep to skip the class but no she knows she can't !
Every time she wants to skip she gets nightmares makes her regrets skipping after all..
As she drags herself outta her bed , there's 2 hours time until her class ..
Does her morning prayers scolding herself for delaying it until this time..
Jumps into the shower to wash off the long hours of sleep..
Sips her tea while Preparing her breakfast as she promised herself not to skip breakfast ever again after few faint incidents .. would it be a bowl of cereals? toast with cheese ? or some scrambled eggs ? As she makes her mind and munch in her breakfast ..
She goes back to her room to check her wardrobe , " college wardrobe" to be more specific whereas she has certain outfits to be worn only for college ..
Dress up in her clothes , latest designer handbag which most of her friend envy's her for..
Even though she didn't pay a penny for the bag she only got it as a gift.. Her latest designer jeanz..
She hates wearing such things but she does that just to fit in.. Remembering the re-action when she wore "Abaya" for college .. How everyone avoided her as if she was a contagious disease..
Her mom's behavior how she got her brand new clothes just to make her stop wearing a "Abaya"..
To get rid of her mom's nagging she gave up her *Abaya* , and went back into her casual clothing..
She shifts to the mirror to apply some make-up , as she utilise from the make-up courses she took .. Uses the least amount yet it brings out her charming features..
Tips her lashes with kohl and mascara.. Make sure to bring out her pretty moles which frames her face perfectly.. Picks the lipstick of the day " shall it be ; pale pink, ruby red, or provocative fuschia? her choice fells into the pick as she define her pouty lips with a dap of lip-gloss..
She puts on her veil.. makes sure to cover every inch of her luscious hair .. not a strand to escape..
Unlike what you may think , the veil bring out her features more..
She knows she's beautiful , yet she hates this description .. She's prefer to be called smart or intelligent rather than pretty..
She rathers to be admired by her mind not what she looks like.. She knows that alot of her teachers judge her by her look .. thinks she's shallow .. good looking .. and empty inside..
yet she manages to impress them with her idea's and thoughts.. How she enhales and absorbs every piece of knowledge..
As she finishes up dressing up.. She looks for her shoes.. Ballerina flats for 2day..
She stuffs her bag with her note book and pencil case .. Side to side with her make-up bag and wallet..
Checks her PC for today's assignments , for her surprise nothing to hand in today.. As she does her homework weeks ahead so when it's due only prints them out on the day..
Picks her thingies.. and walk down the stairs of her house.. Her flats tapping on the marble floor..
As she reaches the front door , she hears her mom calling her saying" Wain rai7a?"
This question slams her to bring her back to reality, that she's no longer a student ..

Yet she's unemployed..

This Time it's Official !

Life is a plant that needs nurturing & care. Water it with love, trim it with descipline & handle it with dedication. Eventually it will give back all you desire and more. It is in your hands & no one else as they are only spectators who will cheer up when you succeed and support you at all times with love, faith and a heart felt smile.

Now, i've achieved the end of the path but for me it's only the beginning.

" Hats off everyone I've Graduated "

I need all your prays and wishes for me to pursue what i've began ..

Zabo0o6a is...

I grow older as another year of my life passes by ..

Yet Another lousy Birthday to celebrate..

Happy Birthday to Moi ..

"Although your abundant friends, or should I say acquaintances, are there to ‘help’ you, to smother you, to conditionally love you whenever, through what they think is unconditional love, you somehow are still alone in the world."

That captures what i feel right now ! *copied from Tantalize*

Zabo0o6a's Quirkies ..

I've been tagged by Shoush, Bojacob's, NewBride and The Purg.

These are the rules :
1. Link the person(s) who tagged you.
2. Mention the rules on your blog.
3. Tell about 6 unspectacular quirks of yours.
4. Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them.
5. Leave a comment on each of the tagged bloggers’ blogs letting them know they’ve been tagged.

And my six quirks ARE :
1. I used to wear a back-brace for 7 years of my life, since i suffered from nasty backaches and a slight type of hunch-back which somtimes affected the way that i stand or walk but I stopped wearing it after high school yet i managed to hide it all through that phase though I'd wear it occasionally when i go for a walk .
2. I'm used into sleeping while squishing a stuffed animal since i was 7 , Istill do that and I undersand how much my teddy bear suffers .
3. Ketchup, is my worst enemy i can't tolerate it smell or taste it cuz my cousin used to make me eat it with everything even with cookies . I pushed away since i was 5 yrs old until now. I usually have my friez or food with Mustard or Mayo .
4. I have 10 moles , 5 of them are spotted on my face and neck .
5. Before i go to bed i have to read at least one page outta a book , if i didn't have any new ones i would just read a page of Quran or go through an old book i already read. Sometimes when i'm too tired to read you'd find me clutching the book while i'm asleep.
6. When i need to concentrate , I have to play with my fingers or pull the cuticle around my nails some may think i'm somewhere else but usually i'm in full focus that way. Even during classes my teachers used to be pissed by this habit but afterward they'd manage to understand.
For that reason the skin around my nails is in a desperate condition for a manicure . :/

I'm not Gonna tag anyone since almost everyone i know did it already , I'm I quirky enough for you?

I gotta get those !

My God , I have the handbag , wallet and the shirt but those are certainly the best thing to glam up my collection ! Those swirls are driving me up the wall !

I think I have something to do with all the Paul's : me likey Paul's boutique handbags, Paul frank Training suits and ofcourse Paul Smith ;)

Hint bro's * graduation gift * :Pp and of course donations are accepted ,wether by cash or cheque * giggles*